It’s been a while, hasn’t it.
On top of having a job for real, I found myself getting extremely involved with a different online community, which I wrote about a few times (like the character backstory posts). Within the last month, I’ve come to realize a few things about myself.
First, that I hate being selfish. Not that I hate other people being selfish; this is purely about myself. Aside from mooching off of my parents when we’re going on vacation or to a restaurant so I can save money, I will actively avoid taking things for myself, preferring to let other people benefit. This is a bad combination with my second realization: I do not care about myself. Maybe these are really the same thing, but they feel different to me. It’s the reason why I don’t shower on a regular basis, haven’t been to the dentist in years (update on that further down), I’m overweight, I don’t clean up my room, etc. All the usual things that fat bachelor slobs do, I had this revelation, like a lightning strike, that explained it. And instead of just accepting this about myself, I’m finally doing something about it.
The first step was quitting the online community. There’s a lot about that group that I really enjoyed. Having a place where I could always, no matter what time of day, hop into a conversation with, drop a bad pun, bounce creative ideas, it was great. But all of my creativity was going there, as evidenced by not updating this site for 1.5 years. In addition, there was a constant slow steady stream of people that, I still believe mostly accidentally, took advantage of my desire to see others have fun over my own entertainment. In the end, I was spending too much time on the administration of that group, without getting enough in return. I cried the day I realized that I needed to leave, I was so set on staying. But I had to, before I overstayed my usefulness and started to hate it.
The next thing on my list is taking advantage of having a job to get…health benefits. Shocking, I know, how can this still be called Pretty NEET if I’m so employed that I have benefits? Deal with it, I’m not changing my branding. Anyways, I’ve been to the dentist, and now have three more appointments to handle the three cavities and gum disease that’s making problems in there. Still need to work on the tooth brushing habit too. The physical checkup at the regular doctor is later this month, where I’ll be asking about how to handle my obesity and probable depression.
I’m not sure how often I’ll be posting here. This is kidna spur of the moment. I’d like to get back into a schedule, but I’m starting to upend my entire existence. Working a blog into there is a good idea, but it might not happen. Still hope it will.
Song of the week…or month…or last year and a half: Song of Women by The Hu featuring Lzzy Hale of Halestorm
One of the last activities I participated in with that online community was an in-character talent competition. One of my characters was a highly charismatic singer and dancer fox girl with nine tails. Hit a lot of tropes, let me tell you. A while ago, I had Photoshopped some artwork that was definitely not lore appropriate, of her wearing a punk leather jacket, tight pants, black and blue hair, you know, more tropes, just in case she ever needed to do some rocking. The talent show was the opportunity I had been waiting for.
Here’s the playlist of the five songs she “sang”. Highly diverse, but each one is a song that I personally know the words to and will jam out to despite it being female vocals (ok, so I don’t know the Korean rap in Pop/Star, and Go the Distance was originally sung by a man, but whatever). Song of Women was the finale, a song that gives me goosebumps because it’s just…power. Not in a way that feels like it’s pushing you to feel something, but more like it’s slowly opening a heavy door to show you something you always knew was there. Also, if I keep up posting and going back to Song of the Week, expect The Hu to make another appearance.
For anyone that is still waiting to see another post, I’m sorry it’s been so long. I’m still here, and I’m still trying.
That's Pretty NEET 